yes please

I appriciate the concern

But I very much dislike it when people think they know what is good better or best for me

you're interrupting my journey!

I had beautiful dreams all night

after seeing this photo
It kept me sleeping long into the morning
which felt good
sleeping in is only fun when there is someone beside you to squish and roll over and nuzzle up into
I guess whales are nuzzley
welcome to saturday
time to jump in the ocean






I want to be that person soooo bad!

look who I surfed with today

little dane. 2 1/2 years old. He's been surfing since he was 6 months and went out all last winter.
such as stud
and so is dad

I wanna GOOOOO

on a surf trip!!!
not that I haven't been on one everyday for the past couple weeks
I just want new oceans new waves new sights new sounds and sand

feelings. respect your own & respect others

You are continually offering a message, or pure meaning, to the Universe. Not through your words, not through your thoughts, but through the way you feel.

Of course, the way you feel in any moment is as a result of your choice of thought or word.

But it is the way that you feel that is your true message to the Universe, and it is the way that you feel that is your point of magnetic attraction. And that which is like unto itself is drawn.


- Abraham-Hicks

more carrot tops gettin down

AMAZING!

speaking of funny human beings

confession......

Sometimes I wonder why people bother to share their unnecessary point of view when it's not positive. The old "If you can't say anything nice, then don't say anything at all." If I'm not catching what their throwing then disagreeing is pointless, just stirs the pot.
But when we're on the same page I kind of enjoy that they say the things I wish I could say. I'm going to keep being careful of what I put out there, but we're all human. And humans can be funny.

So, I fell in LOVE today

His name is Cappy

it's time to take a leap of faith

a little princess

The VHS of this movie came with a locket.
I love this movie.
I forgot how good it is
I just bought it to send the girls in India. I think they'll like it(especially the first couple minutes). magical

this is for you

enter at your own risk

"Early one morning before sunrise, a fisherman arrived at a river. On the bank he stumbled across something on the ground and noticed it to be a small stack of stones. He picked up the bag and putting his net aside, sat down on the ground to await the sunrise. He was waiting for dawn to break in order to start his day's work. Lazily, he picked one stone at a time out of the bag, and threw it into the quiet river. Then he cast another stone and then another. He enjoyed the splashing sound, in the silence of the early morning, so he kept tossing the stones into the water, one by one. Slowly, the sun rose and it grew light. By that time he had thrown all the stones away except one; the last stone lay in his palm. When he saw in the daylight what he held in his hand, his heart almost stopped, he was breathless. It was a diamond! He had thrown a whole stack of them away. This was the last piece in his hand. He shouted and he cried. He had accidentally stumbled upon so much wealth, that his life would have been enriched many times over. But in the darkness, unknowingly, he had thrown it all away. In a way, this fisherman was fortunate, still one diamond left. The light had dawned before he had thrown the last diamond. Some people are not that fortunate. Their whole life passes and the sun never rises, the morning never comes in their lives. This is what we do with our life if we don't catch ourselves. We throw our energy away in so many different ways and directions. This is why our sexual energy is so precious. It is the diamonds we throw into the river of life. Even before knowing what life is, we have discarded it. Life is dissipated without ever experiencing what was hidden in it; what secret, what paradise, what bliss, what liberation."
-Osho

My first memories of the word Tantra were awkward moments in some ones home seeing a book on a self or end table with naughty pictures making me feel like I just found their playboy and lotion stash. Peoples strong religious views, the media, and marketing had me convinced, like many others, SEX=GUILT. A few years after that if the word ever came up a mental image of "crazy hippie orgy" also came up for some reason. Even then I credited it to my lack of knowledge. After that it just became the distant thought of something I might read about if "this" gets old. Maybe throwing diamonds in the river, but it was still to dark to see. Then I met a beautiful, strong, older, yogi goddess who seemed to have a lot of knowledge on the topic that she was willing to share. One of the first things I learned was to consider where you are throwing away your energy. And what I saw was this woman throwing so much energy out to another man. Giving herself openly, freely without hesitation and does it all without even lifting a finger. The second thing I learned was how it starts inside of you. And while she was mentality inside out with another I fought with that picture of her loving husband wondering if that growing distance feeling was just their imagination. I was Turned off by tantra again. Maybe because of my imagination. But I was (a little :) older at that point and already believed that everything in life is a practice. Yoga, kindness, LOVE, spirituality, LOVE, forgiveness, patience, LOVE and even sex. I just read "If the problem is something you can't do anything about, then it is officially not your problem. And that experience was not my problem. Just because she is wise doesn't mean she is not human, with different opinions.
And recently I've opened up my mind and got off to some real knowledge of the subject with no picture attached. Plus, I think she was onto something with this whole tantra practice. No pun intended.
What I've gathered thus far is that tantra is an ancient Indian tradition that recognise sexual energy as a source of personal and spiritual empowerment. Sexual energy does not necessarily mean sexual activity but rather, the life force that exists in everything.
" I'm not against sex, so don't be in a hurry that you have to drop it. If you want to drop it, how can you understand it? And if you don't understand it, it will never disappear! And when it disappears, it is not that sex is simply cut off from your being, it is not that you become a non-sexual being. When sex disappears, in fact you become more sensuous that ever, because the whole energy is absorbed by your being. A Buddha is more sensuous that you are. When he smells, he smells more intensely than you smell. When he touches he touches more totally than you touch. When he looks at the flowers, he sees the flowers more beautiful than you can see- because his whole sexual energy has spread all over his senses. It is no longer localized in the genitals; it has gone all over the body. Hence, Buddha is so beautiful- the grace, the unearthly grace-from where is it coming? It is sex- transformed, transfigured. It is the same mud that you were decrying and condemning which has become a lotus flower. So never be against sex; it is going to become your lotus flower. And when sex is really transfigured, then you understand what a great gift sex was from God to you. It is your whole life; it is your whole energy. On the lower planes, on the higher planes-it is the only energy you have got. So don't carry any antagonism, otherwise you will become repressive. And a man who represses cannot understand. And a man who cannot understand is never transfigured, never transformed."
-Osho

again

Man, I didn't know Osho spoke of such things. It caught my attention. I mean...sensual Buddha? come on. You gotta love the thought of that. No? What about the talk of men reaching the point of multiple orgasms like a woman without ejaculating. After reading that I was surprised I didn't see a copy of tantra books in every home. This is a vast topic. It's a possible debate topic like religion or politics. Stuff I like to keep to myself for the most part. Just spread my message of LOVE with the best intentions for yourself and every brother and sister. But could this possibly be a road to more love? I feel like they just brainwashed me into a hippie orgy.
I'm kidding.
But this energy they speak of is why YOU are here.... reading this personal inquiry. And why I'm here.... inquiring.
A week ago I listened to a friend give advice to a girl who complained of her lack of intimacy with her boyfriend. My friend explained how much energy it takes. Especially for a man. It stuck with me as something I hadn't considered that seemed very true.
Then I read, "you must understand your vital energy ,for life is your vital essence or sex energy. To relax is one thing, but to feel dissipated is quite another. Relaxation means the energy is within and you are resting. To feel dissipated means you throw your energy out and lie exhausted. You are weakened with the loss of energy, yet thinking you are relaxed."
So guys, maybe you should give the ladies a little more credit when they want to stay up and cuddle and you're ready to pass out. Maybe they are expressing how much energy you just shared. :)
A practice.
We need guidance if we go into our heads and confuse love with sex. If we immediately go into sex without recognizing it is LOVE we truly want. Move that energy from "down there" up to your heart.
Yesterday I shared my belief that if you're sleeping with someone you treat them differently. You share something with them that is not the same as anything you share with anyone else. Not in a "better" or "worse" sense. The opposing view said that means I have conditions for love making. I didn't like the sounds of that.

condition
con·di·tion
Pronunciation: \kən-ˈdi-shən\
: a premise upon which the fulfillment of an agreement depends.

Well I guess you make the agreement to share that sacred experience. But it is definitely not where I go in search of fulfillment. Nope, that's no good.

but wait... condition also means

: a restricting or modifying factor

I believe if you are in an advanced enough state to look at love making as something sacred then in turn you treat your partner as something sacred. That can be expressed in many different ways, but it without a doubt can not be concealed between the two of you. It's hard to put into words. For me, I'd describe it as a ball of love and feeling shown in many different forms, but always makes you feel sacred. You can toss that ball to yourself as much as you'd like; it is encouraged. But if we're sleeping together the ball needs to be tossed back and fourth as well. LOVE can be a “profound interest.” Life can be stressful, and demands on our time often leave us disconnected from our partners. You can choose to be interested and attentive. It only takes a little effort, but the more genuinely interested you are in your partner, the more connected you will be. LOVE should not be restricted or modified. So the only "condition" I have for love making is more of a possibility that both parties create that they are worthy of extreme, sacred, intimate LOVE. One that doesn't confuse LOVE with sex. Experiencing a deep connection. That feels like loving with no resistance. Living LOVE. A state of being(another definition of condition). Being LOVE.


Are you creating yourself worthy of only one diamond when you can have the whole bag?

my past love pressed between the pages

If love was just a painting
I'd trace you and me
hand and hand
giving evidence to woman and man

If love was just a day
I'd wake up in your arms
sharing stories of yesterday
today and tomorrow

If love was just a poem
I'd write it just right
aligning the words
to fit your name

If love was just a flower
it would grow forever
staying bright and colorful
no matter the weather

If love was just a story
it would be that of you and me
fate creating perfection
a happy ending indeed

love is not one
but all of these things
and now, because of you
I see that love

is everything




love,
me
circa 2008

la blogotheque

has great footage

here are some of my favs for your musical entertainment

holiday

this was on today...YESSSSSS

such good writing. EVERYONE knows how that feels. I had that exact moment of thinking he's going to see the light and show up at my doorstep. I think I even blogged about it. :) oh love. lovely love love.

I love a good chick flick

I also love Jack Black! He's sooo nice. Neat. That's an adjective I want to use more often.

I also love you.

1.I'm not trying to be famous
2.I don't have a boyfriend
3.the paparazzi doesn't follow makeup artist even established ones
4. What makes someone "better" than another person? trust me I've tried to convince myself I'm better than him. We're all the same.
5. you are loved bitter anonymous commenter. you are loved

big thumbs up for your confidence in the all knowing

la la land

LA is rocking my world lately. I don't know what it is.... despite the millions of people here I'm running into friends every where I go. Beautiful, passionate, inspiring people. It feels like it's tempting me to move back, but I think it's just reminding me what a wonderful place it is to visit.
I got mobbed by the paparazzi tonight. They were obviously desperate and hoping I was someone "important", but I was by myself and it was weird. I had one guy pushing them away yelling "stop taking pictures" and another yelling "are you famous?" I'm glad I don't have to deal with that all the time! Now I'm home safe. I say home because I have a beautiful classic old Hollywood apartment all to myself that my lovely friend basically gives to me when I'm here and uses it as an excuse to stay at her boyfriends. I'm so lucky!
So lucky I don't have to be at work till mid afternoon (AGAIN!) and I get to do morning yoga (AGAIN!)
So much more to share...
but I better sleep now


night night

like air to the bird

Birds on the Wires from Jarbas Agnelli on Vimeo.

do you mind?

question..
hmmm
yesterday I asked a good question and it told me to
WAIT
can I ask it again?
No
well, whats on my mind?
my mind.
my mind is on my mind
what's write or wrong?....
good or bad?....
What's best?
that doesn't exist
then....
When?
NOW.
then Why?
I'm answering my own questions.
ok.
11:02 how do I....
HELLO. 11:03
why do you always do that?
get clarity

experiencing the same thing differently....

you're at the edge of harmonizing something

but bumping up against the illusion of disharmony



I'm committed to harmonizing

my acknowledgement evokes the divine present

upsets are not personal.
they're not about you

I give my loved ones what I want to receive

I always apologize

I am more committed to being kind than being right

I don't gossip or listen to gossip

I ask myself often "what would love do now?"

I practice forgiveness. That includes forgiving myself
sins: actions that miss the mark of love
all sins are equal

I practice non attachment
giving living LOVING 100%
no expectations

my job is that your life is great
How's your life?
How am I doing my job?

I am love listening to that thought





Is there any other time than now to share love like this?

these are my commandments

non guilty pleasure

I never watch TV but whenever I come across some So You Think You Can Dance, I'm in heaven. Dance is such a bold way to express yourself while entertaining at the same time. The more you're expressing the better the performance. I have fond memories of tears running down my cheeks while turning and leaping into the sky or throwing myself onto the ground. I never had a partner to trust and guide, I bet that's an amazing feeling.
Fifteen years that was my form of expression. I think that's why writing is a challenge. Using words in general is a challenge. :) Even though it feels like it's been centuries since I chassed, dance is definitely something I'll add to my list of things that I LOVE. Even watching it makes me feel good inside.

tonight I watched the Best Of..... :)

here is my all time favorite so you think you can dance moment choreographed by the amazing Mia Michaels. And it just so happens that this is how I FEEL this week! teehee


and another from the queen of choreography inspired by addiction. The guy acts as the drug controlling the girl. He said he struggled with addiction himself and started crying when trying to express how much it took for him to get through 2 counts of this dance. THAT's what I'm talkin about.Let it all out baby. AMAZING.



This may be one of the only videos I have of myself dancing. It's kind of a shame since it's just a random class I took with some friends after a long period of not dancing and a dance I learned 45minutes before this was filmed, but I also cherish it because about half way through, when i fall a beat behind, that's when it hit me. That feeling. And I can feel it like it was yesterday, weakness then strength and back and fourth. I love that my hawaiian artist Jubes is in front of me and the beautiful Georgia was beside. Don't laugh :)


turn the music up and dance. Go to a class if you have the guts. I know I need to. I'll do it if you do it :)

it's time to do extraordinary things

If I could enter a "who has the best friends" contest, I would.
This one comes from Bahrain (google maps has all your answers)originally from northern Ireland. But there is a good chance you can find her in Costa Rica...or anywhere.
we peddled across India together and she was my savior. I haven't heard her voice since yet she still shares wisdom and encouragement that reminds me to be present and just love. The ripple effect
Here is a bit of it.....

"Tawney sister,

I know how frustrating it can be to not know what you want to do with your life or what direction you want to take and to have so many questions buzzing round in your head.....that you just want to figure it all out....now! ( I sometimes still have these q's!!)

So a quote for the day:

"have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for answers which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything, live the questions now, perhaps then, someday into the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer."

-Rainer Maria Rilke

Maybe something you could do is make a list of everything that you love. Then break it down a bit more....write down why or what it is you love about each thing. You may see a pattern emerging and they can be loosely categorized e.g. maybe you like to teach, or you like to write, or you like to speak, or you like working with children. Then maybe you need to realise that it's possible there isn't a (job) title that all these things will fit under, but what matters is that they are the things you love to do. And then open yourself up/seek out opportunities to do these things you love. It may involve some experimenting....but perhaps you will gradually live your way into the answers you're looking for.

I know (& love) that you are happy and loving life and being the bright ray of sunshine that you are.

I believe you are capable and more powerful than you know.
I believe you will find your way.
I believe you will always do your very best.
I believe it's your turn to be loved.
I believe your talents are rich and wide and will not be wasted.
I believe that everything you need will come to you at the exact right moment.
I believe you can be brave.
I believe you can be bold.
I believe every kindness you have extended will return to you a hundred fold.
I believe this unknowing season will give way to a magnificent spring.
I believe you can ask for what you need.
I believe this is just the beginning of your story.
I believe the doors will open.
I believe the best is yet to come.
I believe in the beauty and power of your gracious, loving heart.
I believe you are capable of extraordinary things (if you look closer, you have already begun...look at what you did in India!!)
Trust in what you love, continue to do it, and it will take you where you need to go.
I believe in you.

Keep shining my friend.

Live for the moment, don't push things, just let them happen and unfold naturally and I promise you, your wildest dreams will come true!!

Have a beautiful day! "
♥

I'm so blessed to know you Alex sister. Thank you for being such and amazing inspirational human stress reliever

my list of loves is in the works
and I share this with the feeling that many of us need to remind ourselves of what makes us happy

happy full moon

Both full and new moon days are observed as yoga holidays in the Ashtanga Yoga tradition. What is the reasoning behind this?

Like all things of a watery nature (human beings are about 70% water), we are affected by the phases of the moon. The phases of the moon are determined by the moon’s relative position to the sun. Full moons occur when they are in opposition and new moons when they are in conjunction. Both sun and moon exert a gravitational pull on the earth. Their relative positions create different energetic experiences that can be compared to the breath cycle. The full moon energy corresponds to the end of inhalation when the force of prana is greatest. This is an expansive, upward moving force that makes us feel energetic and emotional, but not well grounded. The Upanishads state that the main prana lives in the head. During the full moon we tend to be more headstrong. (guilty)

The new moon energy corresponds to the end of exhalation when the force of apana is greatest. Apana is a contracting, downward moving force that makes us feel calm and grounded, but dense and disinclined towards physical exertion.

The Farmers Almanac recommends planting seeds at the new moon when the rooting force is strongest and transplanting at the full moon when the flowering force is strongest.

SIGG bottles. trade um in

Is there plastic in your metal water bottle?
By Lori Bongiorno
Posted Wed Sep 2, 2009 2:39pm PDT


How safe is your reusable water bottle? That's a question many consumers are asking thanks to a recent announcement from Sigg, the manufacturer of trendy aluminum water bottles.

Some consumers switched to the brightly colored metal bottles in an effort to avoid bisphenol-A (BPA), a chemical that interferes with the female hormone estrogen. The controversial chemical has been linked to a long list of health concerns including early onset of puberty, neurotoxicity, and some cancers.

BPA can leach from polycarbonate plastic bottles when it comes into contact with hot liquids and from regular wear and tear. Parents and other concerned consumers thought they were doing a good thing for their family's health and the planet's by choosing metal over plastic.

However, all metal bottles are not created equally. Aluminum bottles typically have epoxy liners, which may contain BPA and other unwanted chemicals. In the past, Sigg would not reveal the ingredients in its liners, claiming that it was "proprietary."

Now, the company admits that the epoxy liners in its bottles used to contain trace amounts of BPA. Sigg says it switched to a new "EcoCare" liner in August 2008, but angry consumers wonder why the company wasn't upfront about the fact that BPA was in its liners.

Sigg says its old bottles didn't leach any BPA. But, how safe are they? "It is possible that very low levels of BPA will leach from the bottle, especially when something hot or acidic is placed in there," says Sarah Janssen, a staff scientist the Natural Resources Defense Council. "As the bottle ages and the resin begins to break down, there will be more leaching. It's the same process as with any other BPA containing container."

What can you do with old Sigg bottles?

(Photo: MySigg.com)

If you own a Sigg bottle, the first thing you should do is check to see if you have an old liner or a new one. Even if you bought it after August 2008, you still may have an older bottle that was shipped to the store before the company made the switch. The former lining has a shiny copper bronze finish. The EcoCare liner has a dull yellow coating.

If you have an old liner, then you can trade in your old bottle for a new one. Sigg's voluntary exchange program is available through October 31, 2009. You can pay to have your bottles shipped back to Sigg, or check to see if a local retailer will take it back.

You'll have to decide for yourself if you want to support a company that wasn't completely transparent in the first place.

There's also no guarantee that Sigg's new epoxy liner is completely safe. “Just because a bottle is labeled ‘BPA-free’ there is no guarantee that another toxic chemical wasn’t used as the replacement,” says Janssen.

What kind of water bottles should you look for?
Stainless steel is your best bet if you're in the market for a new reusable bottle or just want to choose the safest option around. "I would recommend going with a stainless steel bottle and avoiding any questions about what the new chemical is," says Janssen.

In general, all aluminum bottles have epoxy linings and just because Sigg has changed its lining doesn't mean other manufacturers have changed theirs. "Consumers should be wary of buying any aluminum water bottle as many are still made with an epoxy resin lining that contains BPA and can leach significant levels depending on the quality of the product," says Janssen.

Luckily there are plenty of safe choices for consumers. Kleen Kanteen, ThinkSport, and Nalgene all sell stainless steel water bottles that are BPA-free and, most importantly, don't have any liners (so there aren't any potentially dangerous secret ingredients to worry about).

For small children, there's a growing array of "sippy cups" made from stainless steel. They're less expensive than Sigg's Kids Bottles, but pricier (yet more durable) than plastic versions. Learn more about buying safe baby bottles.

11 hours on the beach

some days you just gotta do it.

started with a 9:30am surf in san diego ended with a midnight bonfire in laguna heaven.




so thats what I'm up to. I know, I know life is good. Lots of love to share